FloweringRebel89

I went to the park today, took my little sister with me, it reminded me of my younger days, I could smell the sunshine, I breathed it in, nostalgia making its appearance, of days filled with daisy tiaras and chalk drawings, simple times, simple days, it didn't take much to make me smile, didn't take much to see the silver lining, she digged a deep hole, filled it with her legs in, she got suck and a bug was on her back, I ran denying her help momentarily, she got out by herself like I knew she could, she is so pretty and funny, she swang on the swing, a lady was making a bizarre music video, we were on the merry-go-round,

You're the boy, I'm not attractive enough for, eating myself away, I lie in bed making myself sleep, making my dreams, fill my hours, I can't begin to say what I feel, I don't know what is real, do you like what you see? I don't think you do, It doesn't feel like Christmas, will you help with that? I always thought the snow was romantic, will you kiss me goodnight? under the porch light, our lips meet, you touch my cheek, your fingertips feel comforting, almost lifting my soul, sweeping my thoughts away, I sink in the slightest, blink in your eyes, where we melt together, where we share each other, alone in blissful rev

I'm the girl, the girl who lives in the dark atmosphere, I'm that girl, the loner with everything to give, I'm that girl, dreading homework each step of the way, I'm that girl, the writer with many dreams, the girl who can't bare to sing in public, I'm that girl, the girl with immature, smart-ass comments, the girl with sarcastic language, I'm that girl, the girl who loves french with every fiber of her being, I'm that girl, the girl in the corner reading novels, the girl who writes her feelings down, who contemplates scrapbooking, making collages and making zines, I'm that girl, the girl that drapes herself in plaid, the

You are my moonlight, your existence is something I am tremendously grateful for, you guide me home in the darkness, creating pathways to my heart, we laugh until we basically explode, you're careful, you're quiet, even more than that you're supportive, you are my moonlight, the luminous stream I follow, the kind heart I linger for, your life breaks my heart, your strength is powerful, whether you think so or not, it's there, inside you, I would be lost without you, friendship equals you, you are my moonlight, teaching me bravery, breaking the norm, perseverance is your key, you're not a burden, for you are my moonlight

I lost you along time ago, your innocence forgotten in the deep blue sea, inside myself I wait, for you to return, in my dreams, I've come to believe, you're not done yet, but you're still gone, as time rushes on, the little girl I used to know, is diminishing, clinging to you, I breathe, your immaturity is so priceless, I miss you, myself.

You said all I had to do was believe, to keep the faith, it's actually quiet now, I can hear my heart, all the judgements are gone, locked without a key and diminishing away, I look out the window, the rain beating down on the pavement, there you are, outside of class, I can see the pain, it's written all over your face, I can hear all the childish complaints, from our peers, if only they knew what to cry over, what to react over, if only they lived one day of your life, would they gain perspective? The teacher's droning on and on about NaCl, I'm anticipating the bell, so I can run to you, "Can I go to the bathroom?" I w

I wish you could open your eyes, I wish you could love me, I wish you could support me, I wish you could be here with me, I wish you were always around, I wish I could send someone up there, I wish I could leave the past in the past, I wish I could listen to your music twenty-four-seven, I wish I could just dream, I wish I could go to the beach or a waterfall everyday, I wish he would see me, I wish he would talk to me, I wish he would love me too, I wish he would sweep me off my feet, I wish he would read me his poems, I wish she could swim her pain away, I wish she could erase the horror, I wish she could see her strength,

I could see the forest deepen with a shadow, I could hear your heart gain sound, I could see the rain through the tall window, I could still hear your heart pound, When I am asleep, I am dreaming of you, Of our lost, forbidden futures, Your eyes mirrored the sky blue, The wound is so vast I need sutures, It was like yesterday, my hair curly in the sun, You told me I spoke with boldness, Then you told me we were done, And you left me with coldness, I will get better, Once I throw away your letter.  

Every time I see you, I can't help but remember, the good times, now you barely acknowledge my existence, so it's bitter nostalgia every time you're in the same hall as me, I silently say hi to you, silently thinking of the yesterdays with you, I should let go, you shouldn't be brought up anymore, you're lost with the time, gone, people tell me to forget you, so I will, and when that one day comes, will I remember you with smiles, or will I forget your existence, as you have with mine, will you ever have one personality, or will you have many like now? I'll probably will never forget you, but I will probably think about yo

I can't believe how many people I sit next to, but don't know, I don't see them, I mean, really see them, their names are a mystery to me, I walk through these crowded halls, halls filled with mazes, mazes I can't continue to go through, the end is near, I feel it coming, but I can't believe I am so close, eight months away, are you serious? the thought still seems unfathomable, so many people I will walk away from, without ever experiencing anything with them, they look cool enough, smart enough, while others fail in comparison, others that act stupid, to gain attention, to gain laughter, so many people I wll walk away